A visual story about healing body image, self-empowerment, and reclaiming the right to enjoy my body.
This collection is a collaboration with Stefan Vasilev – the founder of Define Decadent. In an attempt to start healing my severe body dysmorphia and the consequences of a 17-year-long eating disorder, I became my own canvas. Focusing on the creative process allowed me to confront my biggest body insecurities and gave me a sense of empowerment.
I quietly whispered cruel words to myself. Vicious. Nasty. Paralyzing. Humiliating. Day after day, year after year. For over a decade. The titles of the photographs in this collection were a fundamental part of my inner monologue since I was 15.
I don’t remember the exact moment I started hating myself. It was a continuous process. The by-product of things people told me and the ways they treated me. So, I fucking believed them. Not anymore.
I am a human octopus. I’m multi-layered, multi-faceted, multi-passionate. I am courageous, curious, and creative. My body and how I look have been my biggest sources of insecurity since I got bullied during a school trip to Paris. 17 years later, I’ve had enough of this shit.
I’ve wasted enough of my life hating my body – because certain men (and women) just didn’t find it to their taste and had rude things to say about it.
It’s time I give it some respect. Some love. Some pleasure.