Pain to Power
Overview:
A collection of 19 original stream-of-consciousness psychedelic doodles created with markers on paper.
Available as 1 of 1 NFTs and framed physical drawings.
Creation Dates: November – December 2021.
Creation Location: Sofia, Bulgaria
Dimensions: make an inquiry about a specific artwork.
Origin Story
In July 2021 I met a psychiatrist who encouraged me to start making art as a way to express my emotions. Making art helped me get off the edge of suicide and find meaning in my life again.
This collection is not about fine technical skill or attention to detail. It’s the by-product of a healing internal process. It’s an act of self-empowerment, growth, and transformation.
Each drawing is a snapshot of my inner landscape at the moment of creation. Some drawings are the result of visual journaling, some immortalize an emotion or feeling during a special experience, and others are an act of processing trauma and healing old wounds.
All pieces are one of one originals and were created in a stream-of-consciousness process in my signature colorful, bleeding-off-the-page, psychedelic style influenced by early interactions with my parents.
Yin and Yang
Some days she wakes up restless, with nasty voices in her head.
She feels unworthy of existing, afraid she’ll never get ahead.
But then she thinks of every disappointment as a lesson.
And is ready to pursue her dreams with even greater passion.
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Octophina Original, 1 of 1
Price: 30 EUR
Tears in a Bottle
He thought he could hide his tears in a bottle. He couldn’t.
Sip after sip, he lost his light. The more he numbed, the more he struggled.
His mind went dark. His pain went toxic.
The bottle never finished, the morning never came.
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Octophina Original, 1 of 1
Price: 30 EUR
The Tree of Life
No tree can reach the sky without strong roots.
But strength will always be a lifelong work in progress.
Self-hate, abuse, and cruelty will bear no fruit.
The key to harmony and joy is inner kindness.
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Octophina Original, 1 of 1
Price: 30 EUR
A Daring Giant
In a world of grey, her soul was made of vibrant colors.
But she was asked to silence them and keep them quiet.
She refused to lose her voice and unleashed her superpowers.
And from a timid, fearful girl, she grew into a daring giant.
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Octophina Original, 1 of 1
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Tomboy
Her knees – tattooed with memories of joy.
Of happy childhood days, when life was free of drama.
She wore a fragile soul underneath the shell of a tomboy.
Her gentle spirit – scarred by the haunting jolts of trauma.
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Octophina Original, 1 of 1
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Soulmates
She’d never known the scent of sea or food, or flowers.
And he became her way to smell the world.
He’d never seen the world in its true colors.
And she got him to experence it through her words.
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Octophina Original, 1 of 1
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Seppuku
She learned to push and grind when she was little.
And when she couldn’t do it – she punished her pathetic soul.
Her own self she humiliated, tortured, and belittled.
And got what she most feared – life in pain with no control.
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Octophina Original, 1 of 1
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A Saving Hand
She was an aching little girl trapped in a woman’s body.
With old wounds and buried trauma. Desperate for help.
She smiled at the world but frowned at herself.
All she needed was a saving hand. And when she got it, she was born again.
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Octophina Original, 1 of 1
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Uplifted
Through thick and thin, they stuck together.
They laughed and cried, they fought and smiled.
Their minds connected like two birds of a feather.
Their love brings all the colors of their souls to life.
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Octophina Original, 1 of 1
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Saisei
She woke up scared for she had lost her way.
She’d built a life she hated, but just couldn’t step away.
Enslaved by self-abusive patterns, quietly she wept.
She prayed for a do-over and her mind just pressed “reset.”
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Octophina Original, 1 of 1
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Queen of Hearts
She knows how to impress everyone but herself.
She’s hungry for approval but starved of self-love.
Her light shines brighter than the sky in July.
But when darkness takes over, she sees no reason to be alive.
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Octophina Original, 1 of 1
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Pandemonium
The flow of time will never stop.
And pain will always be a part of living.
Where there’s a heartbeat, there’s a yearning to be loved.
But when blame takes over, there isn’t hope for healing.
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Octophina Original, 1 of 1
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My Mother Is Alive!
Self-sacrifice and silencing her needs were not the answer.
To find her heaven, she had to go through hell.
She found her wisest teacher in her cancer.
Dark pain and terror freed her from her shell.
But when blame takes over, there isn’t hope for healing.
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Octophina Original, 1 of 1
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Empower, Enable, Elevate
She’s tired to be quiet. Tired to be small.
She has a superpower and she’s ready for the show.
She was taught to be respectful, to be gentle, to be kind.
But she knows her worth, she’s had enough, and will fearlessly speak her mind.
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Dysmorphia
She felt unworthy of self-love, of kindness, and respect.
She saw herself disgusting and distorted.
They watched her smile, but on the inside she was wrecked.
Her mind was hostage and her thoughts were haunted.
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Octophina Original, 1 of 1
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alterEGO
Trapped in a nightmare, she felt like she had failed at life.
Alone she wasn’t, but saw herself pathetic, lost and broken.
She wished she’d find a grain of meaning and the will to be alive.
And when she bravely shared her story, for once she felt awoken.
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Octophina Original, 1 of 1
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Ego Death
What if you woke up with no identity? Without a sense of purpose and a will to live?
What if you are no longer who you were, but not yet who you want to be?
Do you choose to die, so you can come to life?
Or do you struggle to survive and live imprisoned in your mind?
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Octophina Original, 1 of 1
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Smell-blind
Imagine you have never smelled a flower.
Not perfume, yummy dish, a baby’s head, or an attractive lover.
Imagine spending decades in a world that has no scent.
Would this feel like punishment or like a superpower?
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Octophina Original, 1 of 1
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Imprisoned
A life of quiet pain, self-doubt, and words unspoken.
Of rumination, self-abuse, and paths untaken.
Imprisoned in a screaming mind where hope gets broken.
With suffocated joy and dreams forsaken.
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Octophina Original, 1 of 1
Price: 30 EUR